Confessions of a Bad Mother

Most women don't have a problem with loving their families. Or do they? I feel so much love for my children. But how do I show it? I give lots of hugs and kisses, yes. But is that enough? How much time do I spend with them? Quality time? I'm home all day with my children. So you could say I spend all my time with them. WRONG! I have just recently come to this realization. I am in the same house with them all day of course. But how much time do I actually spend WITH them?
I believe God is the ultimate example of a parent. He is our Father and everything He is, is for us. He died for us! Would I die for my children? ABSOLUTELY!!! But here's the kicker. Do I live for them? Christ lived for us. Everything He did was for love and to show us how to live.
Now my kids are fed and clothed. They're kept warm in the winter and cool in the summer. They have more than enough toys and things to keep them entertained. But I admit, they don't have me as much as they should. I spend more time online then I do playing with them. When my son tries to get my attention, it's not always in a good way. But it's because he wants my attention. But my response isn't, "Okay why don't we calm down and I'll read to you." It's almost always loud and angry. I've noticed on the few days I spend more time with him, he's so much better behaved. Well, DUH!!! It shouldn't take a genius to figure that one out. But I guess I'm extra slow because he's four and a half and I'm just figuring it out.
I am so ashamed. God gave me two amazing gifts in my children and I'm letting the time slip by like it's nothing. I am in tears writing this. I don't want them to remember me this way. How will they know to treat their children any different. I am making a commitment today to change my ways.
Forgive me, Lord, and help me to be the mother these children need.