Just Me

Well, I'm back. My last post said I'd be taking abreak from the internet. Well that break didn't last long. I just hadn't been posting. Since I last posted I went to the edge and back. I really thought I was losing my mind a couple of times. I was doing my will not God's and I let the devil in WAY too much. In Frank Peretti's This Present Darkness (AMAZING book!), he gives this imagery of a demon sinking his claws into a womans head, making her think crazy thoughts and feel totally disoriented. That is what I felt was happening to me. Did I have a demon clinging to me? I don't know. All I know is that I was so close to falling over the edge I was terrified. I knew I needed to turn to God, but I didn't want to. The Devil told me noone at church cared and I all but stopped going. My husband was worried about me and I was very close to getting professional help.
Why am I telling you this? So I can tell you how AWESOME our God is! How loving and merciful He is! He took a girl who had tasted His presence. Who, at one time, had been so hungry, so on fire for Him, He was all she thought about. But who had turned her back. Still having love for Him in her heart but not loving Him more than herself. He took me back into His loving arms. He is transforming me as we speak. He saved me once again from the depths and I'm so very grateful. I want everyone to know how magnificent He really is! Thank You My Blessed Savior!!!!